Alone

"He alone is great and happy who requires neither to command nor to obey in order to secure his being of some importance in this world."
-Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

I like being alone sometimes. I like processing my thoughts and feelings. I like the silence.

Living in someone's house with more than just my husband leaves me little time to actually be alone. Little time to think through my thoughts and feelings. Little time for just ME.

Marriage is the greatest gift I have been given in my life thus far. I have a best friend that I spend 24/7 with, never get tired of, laugh with constantly, and learn from and grow with. It is amazing. I love not actually having to spend time by myself. I love being around someone constantly. But there are those moments; the small moments where my brain feels knotted, my heart feels like it is my brain and I just need time to decipher the messages that are getting mixed in the mess.


I am not a quiet person by any means. I am talkative (to say the least), rambunctious, goofy, and sometimes just downright weird. I have a love for life that can't be described. It's like an addiction with the day. I want to be with people and out and about, but there are those days-every month or so, that I just want to be lazy, sleep, be alone. My solitary confinement.

People who know me assume that when I am having days like this that there is something wrong with me. They think I am sad or irritated, or too quiet. They don't realize that sometimes my body and brain just need to power down to rejuvenate after going like the Energizer Bunny for months on end.

There is nothing wrong with me. I am still happy, I am still in love with the day, I am still me, just not on steroids! :) When I have a day like today it is best to just let me be alone; to let me be on a date with myself.
When someone is just trying to be nice,  but are constantly talking to me- I might come across as mean or short, but I really just have no desire to talk (for once!).

I am glad that the house is empty. I am grateful that I am able to relax before work, and that I have nothing to say to anyone and I'm not feeling forced to talk. Now is my time to relax- my time for me- my time to be alone.

Remember, being alone is not a bad thing if you can find the joy within. Find the serenity and peace of the silence. Find the happiness that can come from sincere reflection and sort out your feelings. This helps me become a better person. I reflect on ways I can be a better person and I start then and there. Right here, right now.

Today is a great day. I have had time to think and relax, to learn and grow from within, and to celebrate the fact that today is the start of College Hoops. :) Let's Go Tarheels!! (And Utah State Aggies- My Alma Mater). 5pm is Late Night with Roy Williams. I can't wait!

Toodles my friends.

Remember to love,
The Little Green Girl. <3